In the heat of the battle, when the pressure is on, during the crunch time before a big event there are moments when the purpose gets lost. Things become a process that simply needs to be done. A task list takes the place of intention and care. The other night I was up late as there was so much to get done before the event “Bettin’ on HOPE!” actually happens on Saturday.
I was sitting at the desk working on two computers, cropping pictures, adding words, making cards, and making videos.
I knew I was tired when I began thinking out loud in this strange voice that echoed my every thought. Believe me you, most of my thoughts are not worth echoing. Knowing that crazy little voice, as it has appeared before, I knew I was about to hit the wall.
Instead, I hit the recline lever, closed my eyes (hoping I wouldn’t fall asleep), took a deep breath and experienced a moment.
Opening my eyes I looked at the two screens full of beautiful SMA faces and I saw things differently than before. Those faces didn’t represent a project that needed to be completed. Those faces represent beautiful beautiful lives. Lives that I am honored to know about. Lives I am honored to serve.
Those faces represent every reason we started a foundation.
I love the abilities I have been given to serve a higher cause than myself. I dislike when I lose sight of that cause even for a moment, when the process overtakes the reasons.
I sat back in awe of all those faces who fight the same fight every day that Jadon fights, all those families that fight the same fight we fight. They represent the struggles and the challenges that we feel each and every day.
I am one blessed guy to be serving a God that allows me to know these faces, to know their stories and to be a part of such an amazing life.
I think we all struggle with whether or not we are doing what we were meant to do and I have no idea if I am on the right path or not, but I know that in that particular moment everything felt right. The work changed from being just a process to an honorable role. I took great care to make sure Lizzy’s picture was in the right place, I double checked to make sure Charlie’s name was big enough, and I double checked that I had Samantha’s “favorites” correct. I felt that they were all here watching… and it was awesome.
I don’t know what the event itself will bring but all this work has already been worth it.